ambedo n. a kind of melacholic trance in which you become completely absorbed in vivid sensory details—raindrops skittering down a window, tall trees leaning in the wind, clouds of cream swirling in your coffee—which leads to a dawning awareness of the haunting fragility of life
(via satinet)
I truly realized how different my life would be if I were attractive. I’m sort of glad I’ve become fat and human instead of a conceited cunt. I just hope I become attractive soon ;’)